Jackie’s A to Z
Hello Wild Ones 😂,
I hope you are surviving and smiling. I am currently full of joy and peace because life is just beautiful. I made friends with this really awesome person in the weirdest of places and they make me laugh and smile a lot. It was serendipitous to meet them. They are a silver lining in my dark cloud. (Now that I am writing this I am realizing most of my friends will somewhat relate, I make friends in weird places) Anyway, let’s get on to today.
Today’s Commercial Break
What is in my Army?
Sometime last year I had a really hard time accepting the death of a friend. I had always thought that it is possible to resist death and refuse to cross over to the other side. Then this really strong guy who was really good at swimming went swimming one day and then they were no more. I didn’t understand how that happened. He was one of those people I liked the idea of knowing because I was sure he was going to become something big. He was one of those annoyingly multitalented people. He could rap, draw, mix music, and was very techy. Every time I saw him he was always talking about his bright future and hopes and I was sure he was going to be great. Then one day he was no more. I had no one to go to when my laptop had a problem. I was angry at the world, the place where he drowned, and everyone involved. I wanted the world to be gloomy because they had lost someone great but life seemed to continue and this just seemed to anger me even more. Then one day I spoke to a friend who was closer to this friend and was also frustrated by the situation but he looked so happy and peaceful than I was. When I asked him how he could be so at peace in the midst of so much chaos, he said, ” You need to find a place of innate peace that never runs out no matter what happens”. At first, I didn’t understand what that meant until I spoke with someone else and they suggested that I get something that I can look forward to daily and that brings me joy.
So if you ask me what I bring to a battle, I will tell you I bring my pen and paper. I write to live. Writing has saved my life so many times. It has helped me build my pain into something beautiful. It has given me something to call mine when I had nothing.
What is yours?
In Other New What Am I wearing
- Black and white off-shoulder dress- (This is probably the longest dress I have) It was a gift from my best roommate.
- My beautiful kinky hair….. I just washed it and dressed up
- My nose ring….. You might not see it but there’s a love heart on it
- My trademark peyote beads
- I love that you are faithful at reading (I suspect most people will skip this)
- My pink bra is also debuting in some of the pictures
- My white and red anklet
- Maasai shoes that I wore just not be barefoot outside.
With Loooooove and Sunshine 💖🌞💖🌞, Jackie