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Love Series

This series hopes to explore love using different words. I am just going to write what comes to me. I hope you enjoy it and learn something.

Future

So as we all know, your Queen (Shamelessly, I just crowned myself) is single and probably not searching๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚. I have this ridiculous habit where if I vibe with a guy, I immediately wonder could he be the one. Then, I create a whole narrative around the whole love story but to be honest; I discard the thought very fast because I am very picky๐ŸŒš๐ŸŒš. Itโ€™s not like I am out here lonely and desperate; itโ€™s just my single self trynna figure out who I would wind up with๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ because I hate the uncertainty that being single brings. But to be fair, I also hate the suffocation that you sometimes feel in relationships too๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚. My friend says you canโ€™t spend your single years yearning for love and then find yourself in a marriage yearning for single years. So maybe shame on me for having little movie scenes in my head๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚. Of course, these scenes donโ€™t solve any equations I have created. They just become part of a bigger mathematic question๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚.

After swinging between being a nun, a single mother, then a single for life, I have figured that I want to get married someday and have children someday. Coming to these realizations was after asking why I wanted these things and why it mattered that I do these things. In class eight, we had a lesson in Christian Religious Education about marriage, and one of the things we learned was the wrong reasons people get married (I barely remember them). I remember laughing at the idea that someone is teaching a thirteen-year-old about marriage, but now I wish they taught more about this. I recently realized that marriage has so much power over your life. I mean, the person you marry will have so much power over your dreams, goals, finances, peace, and even health. If you have kids with them, then you are stuck with them for life. I read on this on โ€˜The Defining Decade,โ€™ and I canโ€™t seem to stop thinking about this fact.

Now, when I open these movie scenes in my life, I canโ€™t stop wondering who they are. Who is this person that will have so much impact on my life? Who is this person that I will choose to have my whole life with? Who is this person that I will look into in the future and think that I am okay with the idea that we wind up together forever? These movie scenes come from a place of wanting to shooting out and trying to figure out the future. Not that helps, but I canโ€™t help myself but wonder. I just wish I had a blueprint to figure this out. Here’s to hoping that we find the right people.

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Do you ever think about these things? I can’t be alone in this.

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With Loooooove and Sunshine ๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒž, Jackie

16 Comments Add yours

  1. Jadwong says:

    You are most definitely not alone. Welcome to the club. ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—

    Yes, I very much do think about marriage and family life. Wife, 3 beautiful daughters. Growing I always heard stories about how men don’t like commitment, and I was always surprised because I am an all or nothing person.

    I am “secretly” working on a playlist for the wedding reception and my speech. And they say it is only the women who think about their weddings. ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„

    Thinking about the future is evidence of being hopeful. And we all need hope.

    1. jackie says:

      ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ I guess it’s a big club. I hope you find the love that you seek.

      1. Jadwong says:

        Thanks.

        I hope you do too.

  2. Leah says:

    You are not alone.
    I am slowly finding the perfect balance between enjoying my single hood while being open to the possibility of a fulfilling relationship.

    Cheers to finding the right people ๐Ÿท

    1. jackie says:

      I am also learning this balance. It can be really easy to be comfortable as a single person and not be open to relationships.

  3. I actually had this likeness for black American guys when I was much younger. My mom told me that if I want a foreign husband, then so be it. She will support me. Then, I kept hearing speculations about marriage, frightening stories from people, family drama and other things like that. I was scared and I shunned people from my life. I grew older to note two things; Marriage is scary and IF you marry the right person, you wouldnโ€™t suffer or cry.

    Right now, I can say youโ€™ll definitely know when the person is the one for you. The person that will embrace your strengths and help you in your weak times. Someone that will understand you and share your dreams with you. I donโ€™t know how that will happen but, you will know.

    1. jackie says:

      I guess you are right that one will definitely the person that is right for them. ๐Ÿงก๐Ÿงก๐Ÿงก

    2. jackie says:

      Btw your name gives me a vibe that should be Kenyan even though you are not๐Ÿคฃ

      1. Everyone keeps saying that, lol.๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฌ

        1. jackie says:

          May be we just want you to be Kenyan

  4. There is no price high enough to pay for the freedom of the mind and self determination!

    1. jackie says:

      Your words always leave thinking. I am grateful for your insight.๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’

  5. Kenzii says:

    ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค from here

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’

  6. You’re correct. One should never marry out of loneliness.

    1. jackie says:

      True, it has to be more.

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