Hello Wild Ones❣❣❣
I hope you are well and that you are grabbing life by its horns. I am full of hope and innate joy. I am just at the baseline. Let’s get to it.
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People have been writing me emails trying to check on me after my last article. It was a little dark for some people. Thank you for the concern😹😹😹. Some times my truth is just that dark but I survive and I write for others like me to know that they are not alone and they can and will survive. Anyway today we are going to fantasize about my future life partner so yeiiiy no darkness for you!!
Dear intended intimate,
I am unlearning the love that I grew up the one that is laced with pain and suffering. When you meet me, I am going to love the right kind of love. The one that you will not stick around because you think we have been through struggle too much together but the one that you will stick around because we have been through so many great times together.
I am going to love you for who you are not who you can be. See, the potential is good but what if you never become what I fell in love with. See, I am becoming the best version of myself through unlearning and learning and peeling off the pages of my trauma so that I know exactly what monsters hang around my bed. I am not telling you this because I want you to see how good I am for you, of course, I am good!! I am saying this because I am a woman and I was raised with fixing tools in my hands. I grew up knowing that men are supposed to be built and fixed but darling, I am unlearning this. When I meet you, I want to meet the whole man who has done his own fighting. I am not saying that we can’t fight the remnants of what our souls bear but I will not be the one who starts the fight with you. So sorry, I will not look at you and have a vision of the man you should be then begin to work towards that. I will look at you and see the man that you are and listen to the vision that you layout for yourself.
I am hungry for the world. Ever since I was a little girl, I saw the chaos in the world through my world and I swore to fix one piece of it. I like to sink my teeth in opportunities and run with the wind. I belong with the storms so you better know how to dance. I have dreams so huge that my small hands cannot carry. So you better not be attracted to my drive and dreams then find out that you really have no room for the dances I choose to participate in. See it’s easy to like the dancer because of her rhythm but if you are not a dancer you will expect her to stop for you. So I hope you dance. Then maybe I can perfect your art and you can perfect mine.
I think I am a terrible cook so I hope you get blinded by love.I highly suspect that my way to you will not be through your physical stomach but I have the prowess of a goddess when in comes to my words so I can feed your soul. I am no traditional wife material so I will leave it to your imagination why you would want me as a wife.
My intended as you can tell I am no walk in the park. This was supposed to have something sweet and nice for you but I just gave you a manual of things you ought to do. I guess all I can truly offer is my unconditional love.
Well this took a different turn. I was expecting I would have more loving things to say I guess I don’t. May be this letter will change eventually but at the moment that’s how I feel. I am not sure what anyone would gain from this rumble unless you are my intended and now you know what I might want in you. Anyway I will let you know dearest reader that you are awesome and that I love you so much for being here.
In other news what am I wearing.
- A white lace top
- A grey skirt with black flowers
- A white and green flower crown…… Yaaas Queen
- A white and gold choker……. I made this
- My promise rings
- My anklet
- My peyote bands
- My Afro hair ( I finally washed it)
With Loooooove and Sunshine 💖🌞💖🌞, Jackie