Hello Wild Ones 💖💖💖💖
I hope you are well and that great things are happening for you. My prayer is that you know how awesome you are. I am currently really proud of how awesome I am and the dope things I continue to do.
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This series hopes to explore love using different words. I am just going to write what comes to me. I hope you enjoy it and learn something.
Love is always bestowed as a gift – freely, willingly, and without expectation. We don’t love to be loved; we love to love.Leo Buscaglia
I have been told numerously that someone loved me and I often wondered how they came to that conclusion. Some meant I like you but said, love. Some meant I like the way you make me feel but thought it was love. Some meant I love the way you love me but thought it was love. Some meant I need you but thought it was love. I have also thought that I was in love when all I was is impressed with how I was being treated and made to feel. When I came to discover this issue, I wondered about that moment when you discover that you truly love someone. Does it come like a force? Does it just register in your mind just like that?
2020 gave me the fortune of knowing what it’s like to truly love when I realized that unless I have a better relationship with myself, I will never be really content with myself and other people too. I embarked on a journey to love myself when I hit rock bottom in a cave where only I could make the choice to come out. No one could save me but myself. For the first time, in a very long time, I couldn’t project the responsibility to love me to anyone so I had to stand up and fall in love with myself as I was. I couldn’t wait for the situation to get better for me to love me better, I had to love me as I was. It didn’t come all at once, I am still learning but I am at a better place. The first I realized I was falling in love with myself is one time that I was dressing and I caught a glimpse of a flaw I hate and my first thought was ‘beauty mark.’ That moment I realized that I am not perfect but I have the best cheerleader in myself and it is so beautiful.
True to this self-love gospel, my relationships with people have improved. I just love them as they are; not expecting them to change. I show up because I want to and there is no better joy in this world than giving love. I love how the sun shines in my head when I pour from my full cup to people around me. As I fall deeper with myself, I allow myself to venture even deeper in my relationships with people. It’s a beautiful thing. I am so grateful for my process. Accepting myself as I am has allowed me to experience love in its purest forms. I had the opportunity of falling in love with someone in the most selfless way I have ever done. The kind of love that you are just grateful you know them and that they exist. The kind that you just want the best for them even when you are not part of that story. It’s fulfilling to know love like this. Oddly in 2020, I had the hope of knowing what true love is and I had that moment where I looked at someone and I realized I was in love and it didn’t matter if they loved me back or I wound up with them, I just loved them and it was beautiful. It was like love had filled my broken heart and made every crack shine in its glory. I wasn’t going to pursue anything with my ‘beloved’ but I will always remember 2020 and have that love.
How did you have ‘That Moment’?
With Loooooove and Sunshine 💖🌞💖🌞, Jackie