Sometimes I am not okay

Hello Wild Ones🌸🌸,

I hope you are doing well and doing awesome things. My hope is that you have a love poem for yourself and you are taking care of yourself. I am currently full of hope and peace, one day it’s not going to be this hard.

Sometimes I am not okay. I feel everything slipping off my fingertips. In those moments I want to grab on the things spinning out of control and beat them into control. I feel spirit go down and my soul just turns grey. The world won’t stop taking from me, my joy runs out and my peace is replaced with chaos. I stand as a spectator of myself as I watch myself lose everything. I remember myself talking about my healing and progress. Then I think to myself ” You are failing”. I am supposed to be healing not spinning out like this. I am not supposed to be getting revelations about the past. It is not supposed to hurt this much. I am healing.

Sometimes I am not okay. I forced myself to cry just in case I feel better. I feel so lost in my own body. My whole being feels dry begging to feel. I don’t even know how to talk about it. How do you explain to someone how you feel nothing?

Sometimes I am not okay. Everything people say seems to an attack on me. I feel like the world has ganged up against me. I feel like I have no place in the world. I feel myself lose my standing and everything within me starts to shakes. Who am I ? Who do I belong? What is mine? Where am I?

Sometimes I am not okay. I just want a hug. I want someone to see my pain and not define me by it. I want to talk about my pain without someone trying to act like my savior. I just want a friend to listen and not offer to fix it.

Sometimes I am not okay and it’s okay.

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With loooooooove and light,

Jackie

28 Comments Add yours

  1. kwambokaisla says:

    It’s going to be okay never worry ❤️❤️❤️❤️no matter how tough it gets you get tougher ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    1. jackie says:

      🧡 🧡

  2. AP2 says:

    Absolutely the right attitude to say it’s perfectly ok to not be ok! Lovely message. You’re right – We need to grieve and feel anxious and scared from time to time. We need to let those emotions come and go. Resistance in the form of telling yourself it’s not ok to feel this things makes it worse. Resistance gives that thing strength. Thanks for sharing

    1. jackie says:

      🧡 🧡 🧡

  3. Jackie,do you believe in grieving,breaking down and loosing it all for healing and renewal???

    1. jackie says:

      I think it depends with your journey but t happens for some people like that.

  4. It’s definitely okay not to be okay

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you for reading 🧡 🧡

  5. It’s okay not to be okay

    1. jackie says:

      True, thank you so much for reading.

      1. You’re welcome Jackie

  6. Princess says:

    Jackie! Let’s hug! 🤗 I felt this post so much. ❤️

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you Princess 🧡 🧡

      1. Princess says:

        Hope you’re better today. Lovelots ❤️

  7. When you are really healing you face the past it can put you into a spin as sometimes you did not witness some of it. Healing hurts, the spiritual wounds can really hurt and so painful. Remove the pain fill it with Soul Love asked to be filled with love and healing. Ask God to hold you so softly and gently. This is what I do as I have none to turn to. Yet I have my cats and they cuddle up to me when my life is hard they just know it. Bless you always Jackie. remember you are not on your own with all of this.

    1. jackie says:

      🧡

  8. Nanyingi says:

    Am sending you virtual hugs and kisses❤

  9. judeitakali says:

    🙏🏾🙏🏾🌻🌻

  10. It’s absolutely okay not to be ok. No harm in that. ❤️

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you🌻🌻

  11. I love this, we all feel this way at some point. I am constantly reminding myself that its okay not being okay

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you for reading

  12. This is heartwarming Jackie. Sometimes we’re not okay but we thrive nonetheless.

    1. jackie says:

      Yes, thank you

      1. You’re welcome

  13. waaah si ive looked for you..you changed your name thats why i cant find you😭🤧And somehow you got unfollowed ..i thought u stopped writing💔I literally have no words for this post tho🥺its so deep and relatable..simple beautiful🥺❤

    1. jackie says:

      Well, that’s strange, I didn’t change my name but I am glad you found me. Thank you so much for reading and commenting.

      1. its always my pleasure🤗💕

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