What if I could start over

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I will share the most random what if that come to my head.

What if I could start over

I bet we have all at least seen the meme about running away and starting over. I always think about some beach somewhere in Hawaii when I see this. I see myself sipping some coconut juice in a bikini and a big beach hat. If only it was that easy but the truth is that I would still carry my big overthinking head with me๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ. I read somewhere on my current read, ‘The Completion Process’ by the controversial Teal Swan, that ‘Until you have dealt with the trauma that happened to you as a child, it will coming up in your daily life.’ So this wouldn’t really solve the problem.

Wait, the problem? What really is the problem? What am I running from? My trauma? Isn’t that already inside me? My friends? Why would I run away from my friends? Why not just cut off the bad ones? My family? Why would I run away from the people that love me most? So what you are saying is that if I am running the only person would need to run from is myself? I once did an exercise where I asked my friends what I am most good at and this one friend said, ‘You are a great problem solver although you don’t solve your own problem.’ I have never had the truth so much handed to me.

So what if I could start over? I would walk into the storm head-on and fight. I would come home to myself and fight the wildness inside. I would let the storm inside me fight me and through me around as I learn more about the root cause of this wind and its rhythm. Then one day, I will emerge and be the one who controls this storm, and it will be a beautiful symphony. If I am to start over, my vibe will be a beautiful song that says that ‘I am worthy, you are worthy, we are worthy.’ Guess what? I started over. I hope that every time you read my posts, you feel inspired or touched. I hope you choose to come home to yourself and love the best human I know๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–. You are worthy just as you are. You are beautiful as you are.


What if you could start over what could you do?


With Loooooove and Sunshine ๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒž๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒž, Jackie

25 Comments Add yours

  1. Jadwong says:

    Teal Swan was and is right. ‘Until you have dealt with the trauma that happened to you as a child, it will keep coming up in your daily life.’ And I can’t testify to that.

    I wish I could change how I treated the ladies in my life, but I would never have learnt from those experiences and did my best to treat ladies and others as they deserved, with honour and love. I am not proud of what happened but grateful. Without those moments, I wouldn’t be who I am right now. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or bad but that is what we have. Now is all we have. That is why it is called present. All we can do it to live in the moment and do our best to be better versions of our past selves.

    1. jackie says:

      The good thing is that you learnt from the experiences. You have grown and risen past them. I think we all have a couple of things we wish we hadn’t done. But we live and learn. My friend likes to say ‘Now we can make smarter mistakes’ Thank you for reading.๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

      1. Jadwong says:

        Thanks for sharing.

        I love what your friend says. Through our mistakes, we can be able to make “smarter mistakes” if we learn from the mistakes.

        1. jackie says:

          I have been reading your work and I am sad you haven’t written in a while๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ˜ช

          1. Jadwong says:

            Thanks for reading through and the follow. It means a lot.

            Yeah, sorry about that. I have been scared to share ALL of me, but I have a few pieces in the pipeline. I mostly write out of dark places and situations. Hard to write when all is well.

            You have motivated me to resume my writing and commit to at least a piece a week.

            1. jackie says:

              It is scary to write out all of you but there is power that comes from sharing. I can’t wait to see what you have in store.

              1. Jadwong says:

                Thanks. I know how much we creatives need affirmation and encouragement to keep us going. It means a lot to have someone in your corner cheering you on. We all need some form of validation to get through life.

                1. jackie says:

                  Yeah but learn to get that affirmation from yourself more๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

          2. Jadwong says:

            I am still working on embracing and loving ALL of me. The good, bad and ugly. All that makes me ME.

            1. jackie says:

              I can’t wait to see more on your blog๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

              1. Jadwong says:

                Working on having a piece up today. Fingers crossed.

  2. ashok says:

    Today is the first day of the rest of your life Jackie ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿค—

    1. jackie says:

      Yeeeees๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ Thank you for reading

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  3. storianblog says:

    Thank you for sharing such an inspiring message!

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you for reading๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

  4. vaniheart says:

    Lovely and very inspiring ๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you so much๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

  5. Wonani says:

    Ugghhh such a good post! Considering I can’t literally start over, I’ll change how I react to certain things now.

    1. jackie says:

      It’s never to late to change yourself for the better. Thank you for reading.๐Ÿ’–

  6. judeitakali says:

    Beautiful and impassioned.

    1. jackie says:

      Thank you

  7. PoojaG says:

    I think all of us occasionally wish we could start over and to be honest I would pretty much tell myself I’m worthy just like you would. I spent way too much time hating myself and trying to change myself.

    1. jackie says:

      Here’s better days of self love and grace on ourselves.

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