Jackie’s A to Z
Hello Wild Ones 💚💚💚,
I hope you are doing well and that awesome things are happening in your life. I am having a small panic attack about what’s next for me and this blog. This challenge really brought me so much peace and joy and I am really sad to see it end. I already know what I will be writing about for the next month but I worry it won’t feel as good as this challenge. A Friend said that I need to give people and opportunities chances that way I can talk from experience what I really think of anything. I guess I should look at this like that too.
When this year started I had promised myself to yes to everything that scares me. The weird thing about life is that when you open yourself to stuff while manifesting, the world gives you exactly that even when you think you are not ready. So far this year I think life has been handing me everything that I was scared of. I was afraid of facing the issues that had been keeping me up since September last year then life pushed to the edge and then down to rock bottom. Allowing myself to come to terms with the issues that I had been dealing with was scary and painful at first then eventually it became liberating. I remember the morning that I woke up and I realized that I no longer felt so sad or angry. I kept telling my friend that I felt like I was drunk on happiness. I had found peace, it was no longer noisy. I no longer felt like I was suffocating. I also said yes to myself. I was scared of looking at the mirror too much because I was scared of what I would see. I didn’t what to have to face the things that I hate about myself. I just wanted to cling on what other people said about me because they had good things to say. But when the people start to say things you don’t like then you have to get off your ass and start defining exactly who you are. I also said yes to losing my best friend and letting go. This is probably the scariest thing I had to do. This person had shaped a lot of things about me that the thought of life without them felt like the end of the world. I was at a point in my life that I felt the only good thing that I had was what I shared with them. I was scared of life without them and learning to yes to this situation has brought so much growth and love for myself that it makes the loss probably one of the best things to happen to me. This loss was my saving grace. It was like I was a bud and refusing to blossom then someone cut me apart and it really hurt but in the end, I was a flower. Learn to say yes to things that scare you and you will be surprised how good it is. Maybe I should make it my next mission to hold a snake cause those things really scare me.
In Other News What am I wearing,
- An orange top with stripes
- A grey skirt with black flowers
- My peyote beads
- My peach head scarf
- My hoop earrings
- Lots of lip gloss
- My hair with a lot of shea butter
- My confidence
With love and loooove,